Mono no aware..

the realization that all is impermanence, the things change, love fades, pain stays..
She's gone. The one you loved, the one that gave you light.. she's not there anymore.
I'm glad you got to say one last goodbye to her last night. It was hard for me to say goodbye too.

I'm Sophy now. I've left that broken girl behind. Leaving her behind is as hard as leaving you behind because you're part of her too. I don't want to think of old days. They were wonderful...

But what can I do but look forward now? The sun will dry my tears. The sun understands me. I am love, unconditional love.. sometimes I love too hard and I'll burn them.. sometimes they'll take me for granted.. and sometimes I'll creep into their room as they sleep to look softly upon their nascent form.. their fluttering baby's breaths...childlike pleasure in dream's land...
I am everything, and yet so full of nothing.

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And yet in the face of love, I am afraid. What do I deserve, really? And does it matter? Its too beautiful to be true..
Please reach out, give me a little something. I just need to hold your hand for a little bit. Its with a heavy-heart that I accept that things have to change, but I don't want you to be one of them..