Life moves on... and on and on and on.
That's what they never tell you. The story after the "happily ever" and the time before the "Once upon".

They say the most important thing in life is: to do. To keep moving forward. Everyone is running, running on their little hamster wheels, and I've spent all this time sitting in the field and looking at the stars. Up and at 'em, girl.

And fine, I say, so I start strolling.. strolling along and walking and I'm enjoying the walk, it's great when suddenly I wonder... where am I going???

 And it starts to really freak me out. Freak me out to the point where I'm really not paying attention to where I'm walking anymore. And then I'm stumbling, I'm falling, I'm stopping - and then I'm not moving anymore.
The future keeps taking precedent over the near future.

what is love?
trust? unconditionality? devotion?
a giving of yourself to someone else..
giving away..

People are only ever trying to find balance in their unstable lives.

Those that are controlled, seek to control.
Those that are afraid, look to be feared.
Those that are ignored, try for infamy.
Those with none, want more, those with more want less - to seek balance.

We all want to middle out, it seems.

i will never work on sundays

because I vow that I will never let my work life integrally interfere in my personal life.

I'm sure my dog thinks I'm crazy, rushing around and talking to inanimate objects, leaving home and him for hours at a time and all I can think is that.. "I don't want to do this... but I must."

John Steinbeck was a catalyst in my life though I swore to love, and also to hate, his writing. Welcome back to my life.

You're basically alone, waiting on one thing - one word, one comment, one person. and you start to wonder... why am I doing this? Does it matter? Life moves on, doesn't it?

But you're waiting. You don't know why, but you are. Doesn't that mean something?

All I am is a man: I want the world in my hand.

the saddest part is I think you're going to go through with this..
"but when i lay with you and close my eyes.. my fingers touch the sky.."