Laziness. Rebellion. Procrastination. Force of Will and Force of Won't.

There is something.. something other than Fear that I am fighting against. Procrastination: the putting off until later, is generally fear-driven, fear-based. Fight or Flight.


But there is something.. something else other than this that bars me from approaching. The feeling of overwhelm, the churn in your stomach as you approach a mountain of work, the dread you feel before an insurmountable list of duties: laziness?

But perhaps this is not all.. The mental drive that cheerfully eggs you on.. and the sullen, twisted sheer stubbornness of innate rebellion.. A natural perversion of Will. Rebellion. Difference and opposition for the satisfaction in itself of "proving another wrong." And so it is important what we believe in people. We either make, or mold them. Make, as in, fence in their opportunities, Mold as in outline their competition.